Been shopping ard.....eating....guess i shld stop spending money....omg.
its 1150 PM 23 Sept...
Feeling kinda emo....but i dunno wads bothering me. Its frustrating isnt it? Also,last nite went play MJ from 8PM til 9 AM. and i didnt had my dinner then...and when i reached home,i rest a while and go into deep sleep til 1+pm. feeling hungry yet cant eat. So i suddenly have the "healthy" plan. ate apple, drank orange juice. still hungry...so ate wholemeal bread. But i tink too late....gastric kicks in already. The pain is still on till now....getting worse. my gastric problem started when i was in sec sch...still remember the first time i faint n passed out in sch and was sent to the hospital. Scary... But my gastric isnt those "normal" type. When it really comes,it gets really bad. 2 times i passed out due to gastric problems. After the 2nd time i dun really dare to skip meal or such.Now the pain is there but under control....urgh...hate tis feeling...
Oh ya...my emo feeling....i really dunno...Work?Money?Friends?or HIM?HIM?HIM? alot of HIM hor....haha....
somtimes i hate to ask myself if i had unconsciously fallen for HIM A...i really hope not. Yet on the other hand,many says we make a gd couple. The feeling is jus so mutual when i am wif him..simple yet sweet. sweet doesnt means we sweet talk or wad...but the way we chat,the way we teased each other,the way we squabble over stupid stuff....its juz so _____. (dunno wad to put). But on the other hand,i know his past...n i somehow see tat as a "barrier". haiya ..i dunno wad i am talking about also. Not as if we are going to be a couple.....stupid.
HIM B. someone whom i know in poly days. A Senior. something happened then and we didnt "proceed". Still in contact.but it's a weird feel coz its like so many yrs didnt contact...then suddenly nw going out. a very very nice guy...definitely a good catch i must say. I dun really take initiative la....so *sit n wait
HIM C. haiz....the ONE who always make my heart shatters. even thinking of him makes my heart sink. *no need more explanation. *sit n rot
