its 3.00 AM (*Sunday).....i cant sleep....dunno y....but i am havin a bad toothache...from mornin till now!!!!!!!!! sobz sobz....hopefully when i wake up,the pain would be gone....cause since young,i dread goin to the dentist..... i could still remember i ran away from school in primary 1...cause my tooth came out...n i was so scared of the dentist...haha....
hmm....i am reflecting on my life....career,family,love life,friends,future,dreams n goals,,,,,
Career - Neither here not there.....i guess i gotta learn to be more self-disciplined.Be more focus.Easier said than to be done....i am easily affected...often due to matters of the heart,which leads to mood swing....
Family- Same...but i m doin some plannings....cause my parents also joining the aging population soon....n being the only child,i would need to bear the responsibility....
Friends- I've got my wonderful friends....though over the years,everyone's gettin more distant due to work n some,family....but i knoe deep down,its a special bonding of friendship we all share....n i do cherish each n everyone of u guys n gals out there.....(i missed Louis lei....keep tellin tat gang whenever i meet up wif them.really long time neber see Louis le....)
Dreams - to open up cafe...a cafe that is unique.nice ambience. and this is provided i have extra cash to spare.cause i understand cafe is hard to maintain due to many competitiors. Purpose of this cafe is to have a place of my own....to get friends together....of coz muz haf business also la.... Y i categorise under dreams is because i will only open up only IF i have the $$$.
Goals - i realised after my 21st year of my life...i got no goals le...i lost the old spirit of mine....i used to have very specific goals such as gettin license b4 age 20.having my first car before age 23...but i got my baby at age 21....after which i dunno wad i am headin to.....i got another 3 months to my 24th year....i wana hit my goal target for my work...tats all meanwhile. by end of Year 2007,i wana sign up for psychology degree course if i find a suitable school.
Love life- hmm....wad can i say?i also dunno....I almost did something foolish a month ago by givin my future to someone whom i knoe i would never cherish...I am not sorry towards u,T****S, for i knoe we wont be happy together...we'll be juz deceiving ourselves...u r a nice person n i am sure ur gf would be someone who will truly cherish u. As i said many times, treat her good....be loyal to her.... As for myself,i juz need someone who is there for me......stand by me...
gee....i think i better get some sleep.....my toothache is coming back....if not got to eat panadol again....had 4 already....
nitez nitez....
