Few years ago,back in 1997,there was a gal called N.She was 14 yrs old then.She was the only child of her family and thus at that time,she enjoyed her school life alot. Not tat she loves studying but the loves the accompaniment with her wonderful frenz. She was active in quite a number of activities.She is not the attractive type of gal tat guys look into.She is bubbly n happy go lucky n is always surrounded by many friends. She was in the committee of the prefectorial board,music club,peer support etc...
June 1997,she went on a schooltrip to Bangkok.When she came home,her mum surprised her with a set of computer with internet.That time technology wasnt so advanced yet,but to have internet was a woo haa thing already...N was a PC idiot...so she went exploring ard n she saw a program - Microsoft Comic Chat. Tat was the day where fate begins.....
N got to know J thru the comic chat.Few days later onwards they began paging n calling each other...tat time no HP yet...pager was very hip already...the 2 of them got along very well n eventually both began to have feelings for one another even though they haf not met each other before. There is always the "sixth sense" thing between them...last time no scanner,so they mailed each other a photo of theirs...I guess at the point of time,looks doesnt matter to them at all. Not long after,they decided to meet up right after their exams.
Though they live far apart,distance wasnt a problem for them. N celebrated her 15th bday with him.It was at Pasir Ris beach.everythin went well till months later....
May 17 1998 Night. N & J were chatting on the ICQ. J wanted a breakup... N's world went blank...perhaps she did not showed enough attention to him. Perhaps she did not expressed her feelings out to him.Perhaps she did not care enough for him...Perhaps perhaps perhaps....
N went over his place.She broke down...she could still remember wad happened the very night...Both were hugging each other. She saw some tears in J's eyes...But,J only said : "You promised me that you would never cry for another guy...Time will tell..."
From the very day onwards,life changed for N. She gave up all her activities except her music. She became less active in school.She lost many contacts with her friends. N never knew the real reason of the breakup...J had hurt her....deeply.... From a gal whose life was filled with colors,N became much quiet...
N told herself tat she would get over as time pass...However,N was unable to forget him...She did lots of silly things...she never forgets his bday...and each year,she would send a gift to him.N never really get to keep in contact with J. Til about 2 years later,both of them was on ICQ, J asked: " May i call u?"
N was very happy.At last!she gets to hear his voice again...J called her n the first thing he said:" Sorry,i knew how you felt the other time..." J had broken up with her gf. " I guess i own u an explanation......" tears went flowing down N's cheeks. She tried so hard to keep her feelings in her cause she knew the best thing to do was to give him an listening ear.
From then they started contacting each other. J would come to N's school,n together with his gd pal,they would study together etc...They had great times...After all these years,was N's waiting worth it? She longed for a second chance but never had the courage to tell J...
Things went different at their gd pal's bday party...J met a gal named J.Both got together pretty fast...and N....of course was very sad....however she gave them her blessings.....
N was really deeply hurt....not once but twice....N thought she would forget him n move on with her life.BUt it wasnt easy....she had come to a point where she could no longer fall in love...she could not bring herself to accept another guy completely...and even if she tried goin into another relationship,it wouldnt be long. Cause she knew deep down she still cant forget J...
Its been 8-9 years....
N wrote:J, could time really tell???I tried to erase u out of my mind.but i couldn;t.Not that i don;t want.But i tried so hard...Both of us have grown...we have a different world..different dreams n different goals...I am not expecting anything and i am glad we are still frens. As you mentioned before, Memories are those tat we want to keep forever....Today is your birthday...though i may not be the one that you are celebrating with,but remember,there is always someone there for you...I want you to be happy. I want you to be successful in your career. I want you to have good health. I want you to be the best of what you can be...and I will always be behind you supporting you,wishing you all the best in everythin you do...Missing you,N
